I talked a little about my sexual religious beliefs regarding the (what is now widely recognized as the) Christian cross in one of my other pages, Mystic Taco, how I like to see the vertical line as the penis intersecting (entering) the horizontal line of the vagina, and that this intersection represents what I like to call the "Hairy Fucking". This idea is not so different or far-fetched of one because the lines of the cross have often been thought of by many theologians and mystical thinkers as representing divinity's (penis, vertical) penetration throughout the material world (vagina, horizontal), and the use of sex organs to symbolize this process is just a more explicit, direct expression of the same general idea. The notion of the cross as sexual symbolism is nothing new as there are examples of prominent, respected theologians who relate Christ on the cross as being symbolic of his ecstatic orgasm and that his Christ's followers are "inseminated" by him.

So sexual interprations of the cross symbol do have their place in the history of Christian ideology and if you ask me the parallels are pretty obvious, actually. What makes it hard for some to believe or accept, I guess, is the traditional Christian doctrines which seem to directly go against this fact and do their best to restrict and admonish sexual expression. Religious expression and art, to me, should go hand-in-hand with pornography, or at least pornographic Christian images should be accepted as a suitable sub-genre of Christian artistic expression. Given the excerpt from St. Methodius I link to above, it seems entirely allowable that a painting depicting Christ ejaculating on St. Paul to represent the "insemination" Methodius speaks of be considered pious Christian art instead of the blasphemous, reprehensible, obscene "garbage" most modern, mainstream conventional Christians would call it. And there are countless other examples I can think of where pornographic imagery can be used to portray Christian ideas and recordings of events in a very sublime and meaningful way. I realize this will never be accepted by the mainstream Christian community but it would be nice if it could at least be accepted as a "fringe" sector of Christian art where people can be recognized as both pornographic and earnest, meaning that they don't use pornography in Christian or any other religious art as a means of criticizing it, making fun of it or being blasphemous, but do so out of a genuine love for their God and their religion.

I'm honestly not trying to offend anyone here but it's just that I like and respect both Christianity (I have always found its iconography, folklore, physical history and its developing ideological history and varying interpretations of Christ fascinating) and pornography and feel that both can be used as a powerful artistic and mystical expression of the human condition and even moreso when used together. I was raised as a Christian and have gravitated toward both Christian iconography and pornographic imagery my entire life, and it would be nice if I could mix the two in my work without being looked upon as a piece of filth who is deliberately trying to offend people because that has never been the case with me. I don't think negative mainstream opinions regarding the relationship between Christianity and pornography will be changing anytime soon, though, and that is a major reason why I've come up with the symbols and ideas surrounding Mexican food and werewolves, so I can use these symbols to replace Christian symbols at times and still express the same religious and mystical ideas. These ideas consist mostly of artistic symbology and literary metaphors regarding communion ritual, crucifixion and resurrection; "demonic" possession as it can relate to schizophrenia; and existential ideas of "faith" in regard to notions of the Self rather than an absurd belief in things promulgated by other people which simply aren't true or which have no place in my own artistic growth and vision.

Images of pornography are just as important to my religious thinking as images of the cross. The sexual urge, the insertion of the penis into a vagina as symbolized by a cross and personified by Jesus on a crucifix-- has always seemed to me to be a profound artistic statement regarding the human desire to truly know someone. Attraction, lust, love, communion. These all can be seen on a progressive scale of intimacy which eventually reaches its apex in the process of POSSESSION, being genuinely "inside someone" intimately, more than just the "lustful" act of putting your dick inside a pussy; more severe than the intoxication of "love"; even deeper than the mystical notion of "communion" when a person seeks to become "ONE"("For My flesh is food indeed, and My blood is drink indeed. He who eats My flesh and drinks My blood abides in Me, and I in him." (John 6:55–56)) with his or her creator (as in the sacrament of The Eucharist), in POSSESSION one is truly literally inside someone and completely takes them over! WHOAH!

That is what happened to me one night, what helped me come up with the notion of the "Hairy Fucking". It happened before I became a werewolf on the night the deepest degree of intimacy, "The Hairy Fucking"-- a form of "possession"-- occured within me. I did not have as much of an appreciation for female body hair back then. I'd finally agreed to go out with a girl who had a long-standing crush on me. We met up at a bar and after dinner I took her home for some fun in bed. But when she took off her clothes I was, admittedly, turned off by the fact that she had hair all over her. It was all over her chest; her breasts were decorated in dark srouts of hair; they surrounded her nipples and a "treasure trail" ran down her belly leading to this massive, heaping jungle of the largest mass of pussy pubes I had ever seen! Admittedly I became scared, thinking this girl was a female werewolf, and I shouted at her to put her clothes on and leave immediately.

It was later on in the week when I found out I had made this woman who suffered from Hirsutism feel so bad about herself that she had actually commited suicide. The woman had long been an admirer of mine, had longed to make love with me for so long and when she finally got her chance I had tossed her aside like a cigarette butt. So one night during a full moon I looked in the mirror to see that my face was covered in hair. In a panic, I stripped off my clothes to see that hair covered my entire body. I immediately thought I had somehow been turned into a werewolf but as I looked closer at the hair on my face it seemed suspiciously similar to the pubic hairs that had been on the hirsute woman's vagina when she took her clothes off in my bedroom! My face was covered in her PUSSY HAIRS!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I immediately realized that I had not become a werewolf but had been PoSSeSSeD by the spirit of the hirsute woman who had wanted to fuck me so badly, who wanted to make love to me, commune with me to truly KNOW me, and when her efforts failed in life she had returned to invade my body in DEATH! So naturally, I grabbed a crucifix from my wall and began to perform an exorcism on myself before her possession of my will became complete and the "Hairy Fucking" became manifest in its most extreme form with my actually losing my own identity. The girl's pubic hairs eventually stopped growing from my face as I exorcised her spirit out of me but I learned to love hairy women from that night forward. Every once in awhile I re-enact this exorcism ritual, usually adding some sort of Mexican food for added symbolism, and in the case of the picture above I used nacho cheese flavored tortilla chips.